i will wait for you...

Life is still going okay. Grandpa is in a beautiful place where he can fix the lawn and his car and give the best hugs. It makes it easier to think that he is out of all that pain. I still want to visit grandma, to keep in touch better.
I met Rish for lunch yesterday and she showed me around the art building. She and I might get our nostrils pierced soon. Yikes. I missed her.
I babysat last night. How I missed those kiddies! I felt like I ran a mile after all that tag. They make me feel 6 again. I love it.
School is blowing my mind. I need March 8th to get here sooner.
Female vocalists are saving my life right now<3.

Well I'm off to meet Seb for the thrice/say anything show! It was his 21st yesterday! Grown ass man.
Thursday= Lost with my boo.
Friday = Entourage with my bro (Michael!)
Saturday = Babysitting joshy, t and my phia!
Sunday = Shopping with the Beavs (fingers crossed).

I love anyone who knows my name and face.

thanks for all the kisses.

Rest in Peace:
Edward A. Kathman
(grandpa next-door)
June 6, 1928 - February 15, 2008

rolemodel.

My life is getting to be so amazing & I love it.
Things get so much easier when you lose unreasonable expectations.
I like who I am right now, because its the first time in YEARS that I feel like my own person.
I listen to whatever I like. I do whatever I like. I take the classes I want. I dress how I want. It is completely freeing and I don't know why I didn't start this sooner.

Oh yeah, and I only HAVE to work MWF now! How sweet is that? I pick up serving shifts just about every Saturday to make a quick 80-120 bucks. Idk, things just seem to be falling into place to me.

Ryan and I are going to start going to Sat. services at the Vineyard. We leave for O-town on the 8th of March! We are going to have so much fun and I can't wait to see Jaysen!

All of my posts need to be like this!

not working on homework

god blessed me the day he dropped ryan into my life. he is by far more than i could even dream up. he loves me for who i am and makes me feel like i'm worth all the trouble. i know in my heart that he was made for me. we were meant to grow old and wrinkly together. no one will ever know me the way he does. he is my boyfriend, my best friend, my whole world. this is love times a million.

those hands have crafted an album that is quickly changing my life. honestly, i think dallas and i were soul mates in former life. i can personally relate to almost every song. it's terrifying. in other news, i'm on the brink of quitting my job, yet again. once they fix a paycheck from mid December, i think i'll put my two weeks in. i want to look into getting a research job so it looks better on my grad school transcripts. i'm almost a grown up. :]

love/hate

picking up the pieces
& going home.