alright still.

i really don't care if people think she sucks, lily allen is a babe.

i wish i lived in "LDN", because they seem to have waaay better clothing options.

An Adventure too Weird for Words.

let's go see this: IN 3D!

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sometimes i'm just really good at my job. or should i say, sometimes i'm just really good at pretending to be a nice person.

hello shitty.

so today was the first day of free work outs in gym and at first things were just as awkward as normal, you know because I do not belong within a ten mile radius of a gym, but then I went in to the weight room because we're supposed to do that stuff and as I'm attempting to work the machines, this weird older man is just sitting there. not working out. not doing anything, but staring at everyone, including me. It creeped me the fuck out. So I just left. WTF is some old dude doing lurking in a COLLEGE gym!? It just reiterates my theory that middle age and older dudes are the scariest creatures on the face of the planet.

sometimes i can't tell if i actually like certain bands or if i just listen to them because i liked who/where i was when i first heard them. 

I love Wednesdays, I only have conditioning from 9-10 and then the rest of the day I get to catch up on everything I put on the back burner all week. Today I have about 6 loads of laundry to do and A LOT of reading for class. I don't feel like leaving the house, so I'm also going to watch all my DVR-ed shows instead of going to the bank and what not. 

Money still sucks, but I'm avoiding that until my credit card payment is due. 

I'm pretty much done with almost all of shit talking. I've decided it's really not worth it at the age of 21 (almost 22) to do all this backbiting or whatever. So basically if I have issues with people or don't like how they've treated me, my goal is to either address the issue with them or just be real and stop hanging out with them. HOWEVER, I still think that some actions just cannot be reconciled with words. And some people are never going to change and that just has to be accepted. For some reason I can handle it when people do scummy stuff if they are upfront about being scumbags, but when people continue to do scummy things and still try to act like they are stand up people annoys the shit out of me. Haha I guess that I really need to work on the shit talking... haha.

Anyway, I'm going to devote my full attention to my favorite show: Intervention!

you're so content and all I want is more

so i sold all but one book I put on half.com this week earning me a cool 250$. So that will make up for half of what I spent on my books, so that is awesome. I'm babysitting tomorrow night for the Lampes and I'm spending the night at my Aunt's house on Sunday night and hanging out with my cousins who don't need a babysitter, but can't stay over night by themselves. I'm pumped. They are sweet & have a wii. 

My gym class seriously had my sore for two days. If I could stop eating so much or at least starting eating foods that weren't some sort of pizza product, I might be able to fit in my clothes again. You know, zip my dresses and button my shirts. 

So I think I can handle this semester and I'm pretty pumped about all my classes. I just need to bring snacks and bundle up. I also need a pepper spray or something because walking to my car at 9 at night alone scares the shpoopy out of me. I wish all of my books would get here already! I would possibly read them tonight, since I am insanely bored. Ugh. 

I hung out with Erin this week. I miss my sissy poo and love her dearly. She seriously is an amazing person. I'm so blessed to have someone like here to look up to. Kevin is still 'livin the dream' which means not going to school, not working, not coming home ect. No matter what, I'm always jealous of how easy that kid's life is. I accidently backed into his car today. Heh, I suck at driving. I wish I could just quit driving. I think drinking would only be cool if I got so drunk so often that no one let me drive ever. I fucking hate driving. Boo.

Winter always makes me a whiney, two-faced, brat. I hate the cold & the dark. Ughhhhhh.

negative nancy:

back to school:

I'm completely dry. i've spent nearly $400!!! on books and that was even going with the cheapest possible books on half.com and amazon.com. Not to mention the 3,626 i spent on tuition. I had to put it all on a credit card because I don't even have that much in the bank... Ugh. Stress. So basically: work work work. babysit. figure out how to pass seven classes and somehow stay out of debt. i hate money.

I did put my text books from last semester on half.com... so maybe I'll get some dough, I'm even selling the books I wanted to keep because they were interesting. Oh well. I might need to put more stuff up too, DVDs, clothes, shoes, ect. Shit. I've never been this broke.

To top it off, I have to get gym clothes for my one credit hour class because I have none and it's winter so I can't wear gym shorts around campus. Fuck. 

I might just have to stop eating, cut off my beloved netflix and pray my tax return is a couple grand (LOL!), so I can pay for all my graduation stuff.

Seriously, this shit sucks.

so this is the new year...

and so it begins, 2009. I'm pretty indifferent about 2008. It was better than the dreadful mess that was 2007, but still nothing special. I don't have too high of hopes for 2009, I know I will for sure earn my Bachelors of Science, which the more I think about the more proud I become. I have been able to complete four years of college completely debt free. I worked my ass off, more so than any of my peers, not to toot my own horn, but seriously I feel incredible that I was able to maintain a 3.5 gpa, never drop a class, get only ONE C AND pay off my schooling as I went (with just a serving job). I paid for all my own books, paid for my parking passes, my gas, my food, ect. That is why I don't believe it when people say that they "can't" afford college. 

When I was a senior my parents basically bribed me/gave me an ultimatum: go to school, get a new car, no school, welcome to 40 hr work week and bills. So basically I chose to go to school to make my parents happy, but after my second year of college my parents cut me off (as far as paying for school went) and I realized that I was doing all of this work for ME and no one else. So I picked up hours at work, babysat and generally worked and saved money and studied when I could. And now on May 9th 2009, I will be handed a diploma and I'll probably cry and I know that I cannot explain to anyone how amazing it will feel. I nearly cried just paying off my bill for this semester. I've worked to hard and even though it doesn't end with my bachelors, it already feels pretty damn good.

oh yeah and the holidays were okay, i don't really care about them anymore, but whatever.

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