"But we are still here, you and me... And so the question is what to do with that. What to do with the news of the day, and this air that still remains in our lungs. i would say these things: You are not alone. Your life matters. Your story is important. You are alive tonight for a reason. You were created to love and to be loved. You were not meant to be alone. You are not alone. You were meant to do life with other people. You need people who know you. You need to know people. Your voice matters."
That is a quote from the TWLOHA blog. I honestly think Jamie (the founder) was blessed with a way with words. Although this is regarding the loss of Heath Ledger, it is something that I needed to hear. I've fallen so far in the past year from my walk with God and I need to find my way back. Although I love the Vineyard, I think I use it's size as a crutch. I don't really take the time to get actively involved. I want to call Brian Maier Jr and see if he'd like to show me some new churches, just to test some new waters. I'd like to get Ryan involved too. Our relationship will never make it if this is just a building block, our faith has to be our foundation. I haven't prayed in months and maybe I should try it.
Today I met Stacy and the kids for lunch. She and Cody got Ryan and I a gift card and movie tickets for babysitting for them and it almost made me cry. I love that family and it means a lot that they appreciate me too. It again was something I needed to hear/feel. I'm pretty lost right now and every now and again I need to know that I'm a person worth knowing. I honestly don't feel much like I am anymore...
