MY CIVIC IS FIXED. L<3VE.

I think I might want to live in a big city. Public transportation is pretty amazing and cheap. I have no clue where life is taking me, but I'm enjoying the ride. I am 90% sure I won't graduate on time, but it's all good, I'm no longer in any rush to grow up. I do hope to move out next summer. Maybe even with Ryan, whatever, if people talk, let them talk.
So I still don't drink (fyi) and the big 2-1 is coming up and I am in turmoil on whether I should start or not. I don't think I will, but I think this no drinking run is coming to an end... I just don't want it to change me. Whatever.
I need money. Two trips. One month. One broke lady.

Katie Hoog, I love you. Seriously, you complete me.
Ryan Moo, be my boy for life.

Does anyone else think Lupe Fiasco is amazing? He is my current addiction. Check that out.

I got my sanity back.

i fainted in class today.

i am weighing me down.

dude, i cannot believe that i am that girl.

Life is weird right now. I hate Cincinnati more than ever since I got home from Florida. The weather here makes me want to go into a 20 year coma. Basically this is my life: school. feeling lonely. come home. go to sleep. or go to work THEN go to sleep. People try and get me to go out and I don't feel up to do anything but eat. sleep. become a hermit. i guess my whole social awkwardness is never going away.

I miss my car. I know I shouldn't be still upset about this crap, but honestly not being able to come and go as I please is driving me to sleep more. Dad left for Vegas this morning so I guess I have a car until tomorrow night when Kevin comes home and says its his car and that I can't use it. Shit.

I have some summer goals for myself, one of which to lose a bunch of weight. honestly i think this is the biggest i've ever been. katie needs to play a role in motivating me. i love katie. she is seriously my favorite ever. I want to study my butt off for the GRE and maybe convince someone to let me help them do research. I also want to save AT LEAST 6gs this summer so I can take 18 hrs both of my last semesters at NKU and graduate on time. God, I want to move to Dayton so bad. I want to decorate my apartment completely with IKEA furniture. I'd also like to get a laptop (macbook, plz!) and although I love my cannonbaby, I want a better digital. Idk if i'm SLR status yet, but i need an upgrade.

Sorry to Erin and Amanda for being a weak sis/friend. I hate myself right now, so it's okay if you do too.

oh yeah and I need to get my act together with school. not turning in projects is not a good idea.

LOST BLOG EVER.
the end.

ryan wrecked my car today.

oh and florida was okay.

babysteps.

i cannot wait to wake up with your arms wrapped around me for five days straight. To fall asleep and wake up with you still beside me. to smell your scent in the middle of the night. to kiss your cheek before we drift off to sleep. i need this. i need you. it's baby steps towards a time when this is a nightly occurance. when i am yours and you are mine.

i colored my hair. not sure if i'm into it or not. oh well, it's just hair. dude i am lost about what grad program to do. i guess i'll apply all around and see who accepts me. when i get my masters, i want to be called MASTER JOHNSON, doctoral degrees are call DR. whatever, so i want to be a master. i cannot wait to be in florida with my booboo. we are going to j alexander's for din-din tonight! lovely. i wish it was summer time. i am sick of it being cold and lame.


um, i still love james dewees.

i need update this sometime.