goodbye 200h8:

top artists: (via Last.FM)

1. City & Colour

2. Forever the Sickest Kids

3. Lifetime

4. New Found Glory

5. Copeland 

6. Saves the Day

7. Anberlin

8. With Honor

9. Thrice

10. T.I. (omgz)

top movies:

1. The Dark Knight

2. Wall-E

3. Let The Right One In

4. Nick & Nora (ftw)

5. The Strangers (yikes..)

top folks:

1. ryan moormann

2. mom/pops.

3. katie j. hoog

4. the lampe family

5. seb stumbo.

seriously.

i've only gotten one "C" in my 3.5 years of college, 

it was in one quarter on finite math/calculus.

this semester i earned 2 "B"s and 3 "A"s.

future: bright

mm. i love r.pattz. Katie and I saw "twilight" on Friday in the theater instead of on my lap top. ha ha. it was still terrible, but the books are good so whatevs. Ryan bought me the forth one for Christmas! He gave me my gifts already: Wall-E, lounge fly purse/wallet & juicy couture perfume. :] What a stud. 

SCHOOL IS OVER! Yeah and somehow I managed a "B" in cognitive psych, therefore my GPA isn't going down the pooper this semester! What a Christmas Miracle! 

I'm so nervous about next semester, 

here is my work schedule:

Monday 3-9: Manage

Thursday 5-9: Serve

Saturday 8-3: Serve

(17 hrs. not too shabby!)

here is my school schedule:
BEGINNING CONDITIONING MWF 09:00-09:50AM
AMERICAN POLITICS TR 10:50-12:05PM
COGNITIVE PROCESSES LAB TR 12:15-01:30PM
ASSESSMENT/APPRAISAL:MENTAL HLTH TR 01:40-02:55PM
INDUSTRIAL/ORGANIZATIONAL PSY TR 03:05-04:20PM
DEATH, DYING, AND GRIEF T 06:15-09:00PM
ALCOHOLISM: ISSUES/INTERVENTION WEB
Total Enrolled Hours: 18.00

uniform.

No-one can be trusted over the age of 14

Tattoo our arms,

Converse shoes,

Cynical,

But we still do it

We tell ourselves that we're different

I've gotten so good at lying to myself

All, all my pain and honour is used up

All my guns are rusted

So when are you going to realise those are not your wrongs to right

Have another line, have another drink

(Pop songs won’t change the government)

I am a martyr, I just need a motive

I am a martyr, I just need a cause

I'm a believer, I just need to a moment

I'm a believer, I just need a cause

We're finding it hard to break the mould

We are finding it so hard to be alone

We're finding it hard to have time by ourselves

We have nothing at all to say.

you've got your new ties,

i've got my old knots.

I don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness

it's a sad day when you realize that you're not a doormat,

but you are THE doormat.

altruism is never worth it.

no one respects or reciprocates it.

it's depressing to see it live out in real life,

why does selfishness live on 

and altruism die?

... besides the obvious evolutionary explanation,

it that the day you find out that NO ONE will ever go out of their way to do ANYTHING for you

is that day that you give up on humanity,

and the world no longer matters.

what's the point in caring about others... what's the point in using your resources for something other than myself?

before you see it,

maybe i'm not cynical, maybe i'm realistic.

the idea of a just world is null and void.

i read new moon in three days also.

i should wait a bit for eclipse.

i read twilight in three days. that is the fastest i've ever read a book in my life (aside from perk of being a wallflower).

flightless bird.

So I just deposited an amazing 968.65 in the bank. That included two weeks of paychecks. two weeks of serving, babysitting, collection of backed payments and a months worth of change. 

I'm right where I need to be, but I cannot let up. I need to stay focused on this gas only budget. Thank God it's only 1.64 a gallon. The next two weeks will kick my ass with school and work. So that doesn't leave much time for money blowing.

At this rate I might be able to buy Ryan something (along with what I'm making him) and little something for Erin, mom and dad and possibly Kevin, if i can swallow my resentment. 

Other than that things are looking up all around me. Seriously, God blesses me everyday in the tiniest ways. He provides when I need him to. In my cognitive class, I earned a 100% on the paper boosting my grade up to a 76%! Usually that grade would piss me off, but right now a 76 is looking pretty sweet. I'm working on some extra credit and I'm studying my ass off for the last test. I have a ten page paper for Evo. Psy. due next Fri., I have two essays and like 3 online tests for Ethics, and notes to catch up for Health Psy. I'll get it all done, I always do.

Lately I've been listening to a lot of instrumental bands. When I was young I hated anything without lyrics, but mostly because my parents listened to shit like Kenny G. Now I cannot get enough of instrumentals. Seriously, sometimes you just don't need words. You can just feel and see it all through your ear drums. That may sound stupid. Oh well. 

I watched that movie "Twilight" on line last week, Rob Pattinson carried the whole entire movie and I hated the lead girl, Bella, but I think I want to read the books over my winter holiday. Just to keep my mind active a little. I read Harry Potter and the like so I'm not above reading those books I guess. Heh. 

Well I'm off to spend my off night with Ryan.