trust the sweat not the face it's on.

sorry in advance for how all over the place this post will be,

bare with me:

So I've been watching a crap-ton of movies and tv lately, I know how exciting, but some people did suggest some awesome and addicting jems:

Jake suggested I watch this documentary "Standard Operating Procedure", which was all about an American Military Prison in Iraq where a lot of inhumane and degrading "interrogation" methods were used.  This movie just re-affirmed my new understanding that all humans are inherently evil and that we must actively make conscious choices not to be complete monsters. It's disgusting how a lot of people are able to go on and turn a blind eye to one another. How could you treat someone like they were worthless and still sleep at night? I know they say "War is hell", but aren't we supposed to be some sort of nation that at least pretends to care about human rights? 

We had a pretty interesting conversation about this in my Death, Dying, Grief class regarding how "well-adjusted" nazi soldiers and suicide bombers usually behave... but what does it mean when you are well adjusted to a despicable society (which includes our own society)... I feel jaded sometimes, but I hope I never get to the point where I'm numb to wanting to help others.

Oddly enough, Seb suggested I check out this TV series, Jekyll, which is amazing and ties into this idea of being inherently evil... I haven't finished the first season yet, but it's my goal for this week. It seriously is an amazing show so far and is available on netflix watch instantly, so check it out.

Now on to my personal suggestion to those who need a break from all my negative nancy posts: Lonely Island's "Incredibad" came out this week and it's stellar. I might be a little biased do to my love for the Andy Samburg & little Jorma, but I pretty much laugh my ass off alone in my car everyday because of it and find some new ridiculous lyric every time I listen to it. Casey showed me and Ryan the video for "I'm on a Boat (feat. T-Pain)" (seriously!) on Sunday night and made me love that song even more. I'm sure I'm like the only person who enjoys it this much, but whatever.

other than that, life is oddly working it's self out. I decided to attempt to build bridges in contrast to my normal attempts at burning them, maybe even start construction on some that I've burnt in the past. 

death broz.

my moms turned 50 yesterday, she's still a milf. hahah. Seriously, I hope I got all my aging genes from her.

kev is back in school, well, cinci state. lawls.

erin almost died sunday night, apparently. her breathing situation is really weird... for this i am glad that ohio basically criminalized smoking.

some punk kid stole ryan's phone at his gym. it's lame. word to the wise: stealing verizon phones is pointless unless you just like to fuck someone's day up, in that case, mission accomplished.

i think i might join ryan's gym when PHE 108 is over... only i'm leaving my shit in my car.

i'm back into "heavier music"... weird.

i volunteered to be a counseling Guinea Pig and start next weds., I know the PERFECT subject to talk about with her. I need an outsiders opinion anyway...

I really need to do my taxes, so I can irresponsibly buy a new ipod & camera with my moola.

oh yeah and I got the best/cutest new ever today, but i can't very well post it here. 

so time for an update:
i hate going to every class except Abnormal Psych and Research Methods
i might just get my MA in Speech Pathology/Audiology, buck psychology.
i will not be drinking anytime soon and honestly its just to piss off all those kids that won't leave me alone about not drinking. haha no, not really, but it's funny to bum them out.
i will graduate on time! but i will go back for a year of pre-requirements for my masters program.
i will move out next summer. no doubts about it. hopefully with Katie.
the music i listen to consistently right now would gross out everyone i know. but most likely not surprise anyone.
i think i want to get a daycare job for this summer.

cool.
bye.

b0r3d.

Put your music on shuffle or party shuffle in iTunes and fill in the names of the songs in the order they show up.


1. When I'm drunk I say: TO THE END (cast aside).
2. My message to the world has always been: REDEMPTION (switchfoot)
3. At my funeral they'll play: THEY PERCHED ON THEIR STILTS POINTING AND DARING ME TO BREAK CUSTOM (saosin)
4. My parents are like the song: DON'T STOP THE MUSIC (rihanna)
5. My family is described by the song: 9 TO 5 (lady sovereign)
6. My alter-ego is: STARRY CONFIGURATIONS (jets to brazil)
7. I'll have a good day if I can just hear: FREAK THOUGH (ti)
8. My make-out song is: PROTEST SONG #00 (american nightmare) [i like one minute men]
9. This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: EVERYTHING'S SO COLD... BUT YOU'RE SO HOT (the early november)
10. My innermost desire is: VANUS EMPTY (dead poetic)
11. To cheer myself up I: ALL ON BLACK (alkaline trio)
12. At my wedding they'll play: NINETEEN STARS (meg&dia)
13. My theme song: HANDSHAKES (metric)
14. How will you die? INVASION (eisley)
15. My love of life was inspired by the song: IT'S MY TIME (rick ross)
16. My day will be like: RELEASE ME (mae)
17. When I'm in the shower, I sing: APATHY IS A COLD BODY (poison the well)
18. If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: LAURA'S AUSTRALIAN DANCE PARTY (reggie and the full effect)
19. Will I ever have kids? AUTOGRAPHY (the starting line)
20. Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: LETTER TO A MENTOR (mashlin)
21. High school was like: DOROTHY DREAMS OF TORNADOES (cursive)
22. My friends see me as: INSPIRED BY THE $ (the starting line)
23. Behind my back, my friends think I'm: 460 TO NOWHERE (race the sun)
24. Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll say: DIFFERENCE OF VENGEANCE AND WRONGS (misery signals)
25. The best thing about me is: CONCUBINE (converge)
26. What I did did last night was: TARGET FORM (cool hand luke)
27. If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: MORE VACATION (brighten)
28. My favorite thing to do is: MOLOTOV (dead poetic)
29. My ultimate song for dancing is: IN SUCH A STATE (edison glass)