if it weren't for Ryan and his friends, my only social contact would be with my mom and dad. it's pretty pathetic. I know for a lot of people this awkward age between adolescence and adulthood is spent interacting with peers, but honestly I feel like I have no friends. I have old ties that people feel forced to maintain. My life is hectic, but really post 9 PM i sit by myself until go to bed. I'm pretty sure that the only remnants of friendships that I have left or strictly for nostalgia's sake. It's lovely to have a boyfriend who cares about you deeply, I know I'd never trade it for the world, but he will never be able to fill this void I have, this desire to have girls to call and be close too.
So far at NKU I've only met one girl, who although is a sweet person, is very different from me. Idk, maybe it's better to get to know new people. It's sad, but really I feel like the only people I really hang out with are my boyfriend's friends. I guess people have it worse off, but I just feel really alone lately...