so time for an update:
i hate going to every class except Abnormal Psych and Research Methods
i might just get my MA in Speech Pathology/Audiology, buck psychology.
i will not be drinking anytime soon and honestly its just to piss off all those kids that won't leave me alone about not drinking. haha no, not really, but it's funny to bum them out.
i will graduate on time! but i will go back for a year of pre-requirements for my masters program.
i will move out next summer. no doubts about it. hopefully with Katie.
the music i listen to consistently right now would gross out everyone i know. but most likely not surprise anyone.
i think i want to get a daycare job for this summer.

cool.
bye.

Rebirth...

it's spring. life is good.

b0r3d.

Put your music on shuffle or party shuffle in iTunes and fill in the names of the songs in the order they show up.


1. When I'm drunk I say: TO THE END (cast aside).
2. My message to the world has always been: REDEMPTION (switchfoot)
3. At my funeral they'll play: THEY PERCHED ON THEIR STILTS POINTING AND DARING ME TO BREAK CUSTOM (saosin)
4. My parents are like the song: DON'T STOP THE MUSIC (rihanna)
5. My family is described by the song: 9 TO 5 (lady sovereign)
6. My alter-ego is: STARRY CONFIGURATIONS (jets to brazil)
7. I'll have a good day if I can just hear: FREAK THOUGH (ti)
8. My make-out song is: PROTEST SONG #00 (american nightmare) [i like one minute men]
9. This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: EVERYTHING'S SO COLD... BUT YOU'RE SO HOT (the early november)
10. My innermost desire is: VANUS EMPTY (dead poetic)
11. To cheer myself up I: ALL ON BLACK (alkaline trio)
12. At my wedding they'll play: NINETEEN STARS (meg&dia)
13. My theme song: HANDSHAKES (metric)
14. How will you die? INVASION (eisley)
15. My love of life was inspired by the song: IT'S MY TIME (rick ross)
16. My day will be like: RELEASE ME (mae)
17. When I'm in the shower, I sing: APATHY IS A COLD BODY (poison the well)
18. If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: LAURA'S AUSTRALIAN DANCE PARTY (reggie and the full effect)
19. Will I ever have kids? AUTOGRAPHY (the starting line)
20. Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: LETTER TO A MENTOR (mashlin)
21. High school was like: DOROTHY DREAMS OF TORNADOES (cursive)
22. My friends see me as: INSPIRED BY THE $ (the starting line)
23. Behind my back, my friends think I'm: 460 TO NOWHERE (race the sun)
24. Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll say: DIFFERENCE OF VENGEANCE AND WRONGS (misery signals)
25. The best thing about me is: CONCUBINE (converge)
26. What I did did last night was: TARGET FORM (cool hand luke)
27. If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: MORE VACATION (brighten)
28. My favorite thing to do is: MOLOTOV (dead poetic)
29. My ultimate song for dancing is: IN SUCH A STATE (edison glass)

MY CIVIC IS FIXED. L<3VE.

I think I might want to live in a big city. Public transportation is pretty amazing and cheap. I have no clue where life is taking me, but I'm enjoying the ride. I am 90% sure I won't graduate on time, but it's all good, I'm no longer in any rush to grow up. I do hope to move out next summer. Maybe even with Ryan, whatever, if people talk, let them talk.
So I still don't drink (fyi) and the big 2-1 is coming up and I am in turmoil on whether I should start or not. I don't think I will, but I think this no drinking run is coming to an end... I just don't want it to change me. Whatever.
I need money. Two trips. One month. One broke lady.

Katie Hoog, I love you. Seriously, you complete me.
Ryan Moo, be my boy for life.

Does anyone else think Lupe Fiasco is amazing? He is my current addiction. Check that out.

I got my sanity back.

i fainted in class today.

i am weighing me down.

dude, i cannot believe that i am that girl.

Life is weird right now. I hate Cincinnati more than ever since I got home from Florida. The weather here makes me want to go into a 20 year coma. Basically this is my life: school. feeling lonely. come home. go to sleep. or go to work THEN go to sleep. People try and get me to go out and I don't feel up to do anything but eat. sleep. become a hermit. i guess my whole social awkwardness is never going away.

I miss my car. I know I shouldn't be still upset about this crap, but honestly not being able to come and go as I please is driving me to sleep more. Dad left for Vegas this morning so I guess I have a car until tomorrow night when Kevin comes home and says its his car and that I can't use it. Shit.

I have some summer goals for myself, one of which to lose a bunch of weight. honestly i think this is the biggest i've ever been. katie needs to play a role in motivating me. i love katie. she is seriously my favorite ever. I want to study my butt off for the GRE and maybe convince someone to let me help them do research. I also want to save AT LEAST 6gs this summer so I can take 18 hrs both of my last semesters at NKU and graduate on time. God, I want to move to Dayton so bad. I want to decorate my apartment completely with IKEA furniture. I'd also like to get a laptop (macbook, plz!) and although I love my cannonbaby, I want a better digital. Idk if i'm SLR status yet, but i need an upgrade.

Sorry to Erin and Amanda for being a weak sis/friend. I hate myself right now, so it's okay if you do too.

oh yeah and I need to get my act together with school. not turning in projects is not a good idea.

LOST BLOG EVER.
the end.

ryan wrecked my car today.

oh and florida was okay.